Just Go

if only things were different and I didn’t feel this way then maybe I could go on to live my life each day instead of crying my self to sleep with fears of dreaming of you and waking up with a torn heart because my love for you will never do I try to forget the look in your eyes for deep down I know there full of lies your smile leaves a hollow space in my shattered chest but I know leaving you behind is for the very best I still feel your caring arms rap around my back but no sooner do I start to relax the memories starts to slack coming back into reality I mentally slap my self for allowing you to have this over me even know its not meant to be I still wish you were hear with me even when your not around the wind plays tricks on me by blowing your sent to caress my face its sweeter then any place but as it all ways is no sooner do I smell again its gone with in the wind and I am only left with the memories of how we could have been I am still waiting by the door in the hopes that you will return but I guess in time I will have to learn every time the phone rings my hopes start to rise for with the very thought of you calling I can not hide my sad disguise but as it is in the end its not your voice I hear but that of a strangers and my eyes start to tear I want to know when all this stupidity will end I need to be free of this infatuation of you and me please stop tormenting me and leave me be . don’t call around to see how I am its driving me around the bend don’t message me to say you still care I all ready know your feelings there don’t ask around to see what I have done I can tell you now I have had no fun your sending me crazy cant you see for the sake of my mental satiability just leave me be so I can forget about you and me this is my last good bye in the hopes that our feelings will soon die so I can have back my life and some normality because if this don’t stop its going to lead to a fatality so with this letter I send you a kiss and let you know you will all ways be loved and missed but no more tears will I cry for you its over now I have walked away no longer will I think of you each day