Julio's

Wanting to forget

I try to convince myself that you don't really exist
You are just a voice that lingers in my soul
Slowly eating at me altering all reality

Then I see you from a distance
My heart begins to shatter again
I reminded by what you did to me

I try to let the rain wash away the pain
But the pain will always remain
Locked away deep inside

Trapped by the loneliness 
Entwined by the betrayal
And kept alive by the emptiness 

I pray to forget you
Let you fade away so I can go on
But your voice has engraved itself in my memory

Consuming me further into this nightmare
Leaving me lost
And forever bound to the pain
i love you so much. why did you have to be a brat
i wish that you didn't have to tell me that
i love you so much i'm indifferent
i hate to say this, but i look at you different

i love you so much. are you a fraud
i wish things could be different, but i guess not

i love you so much; no, i have to pay
did your really love me, or do you just play

i love you so much; i'm just a funny, simple guy 
now, i would do anything just to have you nearby

i love you so much; what should i do
now, i guess i have to play the fool

i love you so much. do i have the right to be mad
or am i just a selfish young man

i love you so much, i thought we had something going
i thought that our love was growing

i love you so much, i hope everything works between you and him
but if not,  i will always be here for you through the thick and thin
i love you so much, even though i want you to work it out
i'll be here for you, without a doubt
Copyright © | Year Posted 2007

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