Jenny Fake Happy
jenny got informed early in
life that to get by she needed
to lock up all her emotions,
she got told that there was a
proper way to be & if she stayed
that proper proper way, that
it would open up the road to
success, wealth & fame, if she
let it, if she desired it (the desire
of such things was said to be
the end-all-be-all by said
informant)---to excel in the
proper way, she found quickly
that to present each & every
person she met with a face
full of the most amiable
happy dappy which she could
muster (absolutely regardless
of what it was that she was
feeling inside) would ensure
the best possible outcome,
regarding her journey to the
top.
some people loved her, at least
the “her” that they saw &
some people weren’t convinced,
so she spent her days of youth in
that private campaign, that uphill
struggle, pushing that rock to
make sure it doesn’t roll down &
crush…she did so, in order to be
liked by all, she did so, in order
to try & erase what was really
going on inside.
alas, jenny fake happy’s innards,
they just didn’t agree with what
the mind & will had been concocting…
for them this was a wick that
had been burning at both ends for
quite some time---for them this was
a waste of energy…energy that was
not replenishable, energy that did not
come from a renewable resource.
so when her body rebelled, she just
wasn’t ready---for the campaign
will stress you out (but ya can’t
show it now, because somebody’ll
find you out), the campaign will
drain you (can’t show it now,
somebody’ll find you out), the
campaign will wreck you & leave
you out to dry
&
in that drying process, she had
no real friends, because they’d
never spent full time with her,
she had no real love because it was
all based on the image, she had
no compassionate medicine of
any kind &
the disease that had riddled her
distracted body,
did her in---
and
that
was
real.
Copyright © Andrew Delapruch | Year Posted 2012
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