It Wasn'T Always Like This

Time moves and relations passes, Passes by missing out on you, Never knew a young man's heart could be so heavy in his youth, Wouldn't expect the heaviness on my heart would be caused by you, Lessons learned but I never meant to burn bridges, Bridges that could've led me back to you, Damn, Girl I played my cards with you like I just renigged in spades, Why did I choose to misbehave and cause you to hate me, In actuality I could cry out for you until tears out my body were no more, We barely knew each other but I felt a connection, A connection that drove deeper than any long ********, It didn't matter where I went as long as you were in my direction, Disappointing you and myself, Now I see that self satisfaction is a form of good wealth, Damn, You moved on long ago and I thought so did I, But no matter who I was with it meant nothing unless I could once again get lost in your eyes, You never gave me a reason to pursue, If anything you gave me reasons to subdue, All the things I did that you liked, And all the things I did that you didn't, Shows which one I did more seeing how you not with me, It's sad now that I must say, That everyday I look in the mirror after I wake, And have to know that you were my potential good thing that I let slip Away.... -O. McDougal