It Hurts But I Have To Let You Go

Kills me to ignore your phone calls When I long to hear your voice Its torment having to delete your text messages When I really want to read what you have to say It destroys me not keeping in contact with you Knowing that I want to be with you the most But I have to do what’s best for me And let you go So when I get weak and want to pick up the phone I pick up a pen instead and write you Then seal it with a kiss and throw it in the fire place And that hurts me too I just want to let you know that you will never be deleted You always will have a special place in my heart And I keep your memories with me always So although I don’t talk to you directly I speak to you as I look out the windowsill Even though I don’t read your text I pretend to read imaginary ones from you And although we have no contact at all I pray to God for you I don’t hate you at all and would love to be your friend But my heart is broken and it’s going to take time to mend So from now on I rely on God to take care of you But I hope you never forget that I love you It hurts so much that I have to let you go But love, in my heart you never left