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It Can't Be Real

A truth in rage of insult furrows my mind For it is only an offense given to me by myself In the mouths of others far innocent than I I feel the tears trickle down my cheeks For I have surfaced into an ugly mistake I am always inadequate in this brain I try to shine like the advice of grace given But confidence rarely rears its head my way There’s a sort of shade blocking its way A shade that darkens everyday That very shade led me to believe my feelings are wrong That I will never belong so long as they are not controlled I must be careful—for the lines of love and lust run cold I hate myself truly this night And no one but myself will give me the right The very right to degrade my every being Because you are not seeing what I am seeing There is no point My lines run cold Can I be so bold as to say I still love with a pang of indistinguishable doubt All feelings enter in As my truth blurs and checks out Your words pierce me so deep I cannot describe the pain I feel God it hurts so bad It can’t be real Much like the love I have come to embrace The very love that links to your face Tears don’t give it justice It can’t be real Much like the love I will never face

Copyright © | Year Posted 2013

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Date: 9/17/2013 6:54:00 PM
Can you stand the face of love is the question? I know it is hard because it is hard for me. Suffering from depression you never know what is real. This poem speaks to me on many levels, but most importantly it tells me you are lonely. We came in alone we got out alone. The world is a lonely place. I found someone to help through, perhaps you have too. Always ~Kilmer
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Date: 9/17/2013 1:48:00 PM
Beautiful tragedy, a beautiful education Laura - evrything about this composition is graduated Laura, the message and experience is sophisticated the word choice is delicate yet powerful, the length is precise - a very solid work here - everyone can find, and create, great value from this Art - J.A.B. %
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Date: 9/15/2013 5:14:00 AM
powerful. very well written.
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Date: 9/13/2013 4:40:00 PM
This is sad and painful and a very good write, but remember - nothing lasts forever. hanks for sharing...... Lucilla
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Date: 9/13/2013 6:38:00 AM
This one makes me ache, I feel the intensity of emotion and there are so many parts I can relate to. This is an amazing and sad piece.
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Date: 9/12/2013 6:07:00 PM
Hi Laura, An emotional write..Love exists and it will find you.. Ken
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Date: 9/11/2013 4:39:00 AM
heartfelt wipe away the tears beautiful piece
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Date: 9/11/2013 12:32:00 AM
Whoa Laura - I love the depth of feelings expressed here - The struggle to rise above, the doubt and hurt - I like the way the poem brings out the 'main text' and alludes to a 'subtext' - very well done.
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Date: 9/10/2013 8:43:00 PM
i wish you get what you have desired all these dear poetess it seems you were hurt in the past...i hope u find peace and love. I can relate myself with your words. about this poem.....this is going to be my fav now.... cheer up !
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Date: 9/10/2013 10:29:00 AM
There are way too many things I can say to this. The only thing I can say, right now, know your worth. Insist on being treated like the lady you are and do not settle for less. This was a massive emotional roller coaster. May the sun rise higher today...
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Laura Breidenthal
Date: 9/10/2013 7:59:00 PM
I will try my friend..thank you.. ~Laura