Is It Me?

Am I even worth enough? I feel like every single time I think I’ve found the one, I realise something is wrong. My body is telling me something is missing, my heart is telling me that there’s a piece gone astray- a piece that my heart thought would stay in place. But alas, the piece was stuck on by glue and was not truly meant to be there in the first place. I feel like I’m never enough- I’m wonderful, he’s obsessed with me; however, it’s never enough to make someone want to truly know me, see me. Am I not worthy enough for you to take the time to know me? Over one year and yet now the universe is forcing me to realise that this piece of my heart was not stuck on by you but by me. I thought if you truly loved someone that you’d take the time to know them; but now I’m realising that you don’t really know me, you don’t really take the time out to figure out my corks and why my screws are loose. I tell you everything like it’s some kind of cheat code, I control everything so you don’t have to worry because god forbid you put a little more effort into knowing what makes me happy. My heart of mine is so simple and yet it feels the need to accomodate for others that don’t want to give it the same treatment. I just don’t know what to do with myself anymore, what should I do? After this realisation, it feels like my heart is breaking into two. I love you so much but why is it that my body is telling me this is wrong now? I want it to be so right, but I guess now I need to put you to the test. I want it to be right, please prove my body wrong- I don’t want to live this life if my heart isn’t still singing our song.