Is It Goodbye

The winding road of life snakes uphill I’m tired of this drudgery, but I persevere still Because it is easy to let go of my life and give up But I try to fight the gloom and I stand up The journey is tiresome and good memories are few Most days are lackluster, I feel blue But I cling on to memories good to feel alive Even though I bleed profusely, to live, I strive I remember faces and voices that were once part of my lore Which I thought defined my existence, tough to let go Their absence creates a void, so difficult to fill or ignore But I have to learn to live without them, I know But there is one such person, I can never forget Someone I wish to cling to, however old I get The fondness for who has grown with every passing day And I fear the dark loneliness of when she would be away As time goes by that day surely comes When goodbyes are in order and tears become my chums And she looks at me one last time and slowly turns away And through all my deep anguish, for her happiness I pray I pray to god to bless her with joy limitless That what she seeks she finds plenty, never an ounce less That she forgets me soon enough lest she be in pain Because with memories of me in her heart, she has nothing to gain With such a heavy feeling I turn away and smile Knowing it is over for good, I won’t see here even for a while And I try to find space for my feelings in a corner of my heart And break down and cry, because I have been torn apart I love her, so I set her free into the world that she belongs Where not a memory of mine restrains her, she gets the freedom for which she longs Where she does things that make her happy and is with people she calls friends And in that comforting knowledge I rest, and wish my life ends But a part of me wants to believe that this reality isn’t true That she will again bless my life, looking glorious in love’s hue So with teary eyes I ask her if she will come back and in my arms lie Please tell me this is just a temporary separation, not a final goodbye