Is It Fair

Is it fair that she calls me a *****? Is it fair that she calls me stupid? Is it fair that she kicked me out and let me sleep outside? All these things happened and it wasn't even my fault She never let her son take blame just me It would always be You *****! You Dumbass! You whore! With tears in my eyes I'd mentally cuss her,I'd picture myself leaving the house,with a smile on my face I'd say I will be back in 6 years My life looks so perfect from far But as you walk closer,you realise..its all just a front I'm tired of fighting I say,I'm tired of being the emotional punching bag She treats me like she didn't give birth to me Like I'm the reason for her misery She says she loves me but I know for a fact that I hate her She treats me like I'm not her youngest daughter She said she wishes I die That's something I needed to hear After having a tough day at school So I ask again...is it fair that I'm still alive? Why am I alive?