Is God is watching?

God is watching you. He is watching me Whether you are a believer or godless He is ringing the dinner bell, come home Heaven's table is crowded with the dead Stay away a little longer to make room Don’t do anything to shorten your life Don’t be in the wrong place at the wrong time He doesn't seem to care if you run away Your grave will be your seat at the table Watch me head to the liquor store instead How can a Father not see, I need rescue? I guess that’s what 5150 is for when lost A shot of Zyprexa to take away loneliness Is He tempted to reach out to innocents? He's all powerful, but sent out his broken Son Leaving me with a devil who watches over me Making me wonder if its eyes are mine Shut off my brain calling me home Perhaps that’s why I reach for the bottle A pacifier for grown-ups without a guardian Accept us however we crawl, do more than look This day has already gone to hell, intervene I’ll wake up tomorrow fresh as a wilted daisy Will He look for me when I'm wasted? Perhaps He'll applaud silently from His last supper How well I walk to the gallows, weighted down Tear off my nametag. His touchless gaze maddens Everyone comes home when their sentence is up I look up at the cruel sun, but don’t see Him I just hear the damn triangle banging faith I begin to see like He does, the utility in a vapor Why does He make faith so impossible? I guess I’ll watch my water fall and rise Like His favorite Son's blood on the cross Feeling abandoned by his gaze