Insomnia

Occasionally, I taste wakeful infinity.
It creeps on me at night.
There I lie in all kinds of positions,
while sleep flies away silently, ominously,
over the rafters and out into the starless night.
 
Fear grips my soul,
My worries taunt
for tomorrow will come,
eyes red, bags will hang beneath the lids,
and a body rigid, stressed, and tired.
Fatigue is in my very bones.
 
How fragile our lives can be?
Why can't I conjure visions
out of the darkness of the night?
Even the moon went to sleep.

I count sheep, 
unending fields, trains,
or gentle breezes that help sails into port.
Nothing works. I just give up,
lie back and hope in vain.
Thoughts fly, ugly at times,
I strive to remember the gentler moments,
but fail miserably.  I feel faint.
I turn, I stretch, I count, I pray.
I feel like an insignificant pinpoint
in the universe's expanse.
Can't do anything but wait for dawn.
Copyright © | Year Posted 2022

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Marcum Wong Avatar
April 18, 2022 at 7:12 AM
I really admire my children who can lay down and sleep anywhere, anytime. I am happy they don’t know of insomnia and I hope they never do. You have described it well in your poem Victor. Going through the day with so little sleep is like running my car on empty. I hope you find a way to get some rest. I am up reading poetry after 4 hrs. of sleep. I hope I can get back to sleep a little more. Last night I didn’t sleep but maybe one hour. Blessings xxoo
U.D Palawon  Avatar
March 31, 2022 at 6:11 AM
I can relate to this...i do often have sleepless nights as i juggle with many duties everyday. I found a solution..keeping busy; i read, i write or do some chores silently.:)) Your writing connects to reality. This is what i like. Sunita UPD
Dietrich Avatar
March 30, 2022 at 3:59 PM
I sure understand this one all too well, Victor. Gosh, I have been so busy lately that I have only been visiting poets who leave me comments. Sorry I took so long to think of you. Unless I get visits, i just tend to forget the good old standby poets who are always writing here. It looks like you have been very busy and this one is awesome. I take sleeping pills which help my sleep a lot. I even learned to get by on smaller dosage!
Roper Avatar
March 29, 2022 at 10:44 PM
Well said, Victor, restless nights you do everything to try to sleep And not able to. I think it comes with age cause I do it every night. Blessings my friend
Pandit Avatar
March 29, 2022 at 10:21 AM
Your gifted pen writes perfect descriptions, Victor--sleep disturbance can roil us at night as you so eloquently illustrate in this poem. My very best to you, Victor.
George Avatar
March 28, 2022 at 9:49 PM
I remember to have posted a comment earlier. Unfortunately it is not showing up. Wonderfully written Victor ! I have experienced this and it is so miserable, exactly as you describe ! Taking deep breaths will help.... I have heard many say ! Tried all such stunts, but nothing works ! I have written a poem too on it ! Wish you restful sleep in the coming nights !
Buehler Avatar
March 28, 2022 at 11:33 AM
Unfortunately, insomnia visits us all from time to time, and despite everything we do (such as sleeping pills or counting sheep), it sometimes has its way. You are in my prayers, friend. Superb writing!
Brown Avatar
March 28, 2022 at 10:55 AM
Victor, excellent job on painting a picture of insomnia. So, sorry you're having problems, I can feel your pain. Hugs & Prayers ~ Debra
Rodrigues Avatar
March 28, 2022 at 9:49 AM
So sorry, Victor! A heartfelt poem.
Seeker Avatar
March 28, 2022 at 9:25 AM
I often get up in the night too, using the opportunity to vivify the black stillness of the night with deep agendaless thought rested meditation. Then I fall asleep automatically after a while!
Hankins Avatar
March 28, 2022 at 8:24 AM
Ah, Victor, I sympathize with you suffering from insomnia. I rarely experience it myself, although occasionally I have a bit of trouble falling to sleep if there is something troubling my mind. Good writing, my friend.
Poet Avatar
March 28, 2022 at 7:24 AM
Victor, you've written such eloquently about the midnight fight to sleep. I hope this isn't how you're feeling most times. This line struck a chord with me: "How fragile our lives maybe?"  and: I taste wakeful infinity. Bringing you all my warm wishes for a nice night's sleep and rest. You did an excellent job!
Lawrence Avatar
March 28, 2022 at 7:05 AM
Victor, You described your dance with insomnia so well . So many descriptive passages - I taste wakeful infinity says it all . I hope this is not your state of being on most nights. It does drag one down after a few days . Sending all good wishes to you and hopefully deep sleep and rest . Well done! Susan :)
Daniel Avatar
March 28, 2022 at 6:33 AM
Something which everyone can relate to at some point in their life, Victor, I especially liked the first paragraph:)
Kendrick Avatar
March 28, 2022 at 6:02 AM
So many people do suffer from some form of insomnia. I feel for you if you do. I usually don't have trouble falling asleep but have trouble staying asleep. I can have the same horrible dream when I do sleep for several nights. It is like I take up where I left off the last night. I enjoyed reading your work. Thanks for the visit to my page. Sara
May Avatar
March 28, 2022 at 4:39 AM
An excellent description of insomnia where only dawn can bring relief, Well penned Victor
Kitchin Avatar
March 28, 2022 at 3:46 AM
A great poem Victor, insomnia is the worst!
Cunningham Avatar
March 28, 2022 at 1:12 AM
Nothing worse than a bad night's sleep, I too often walk at strange hours and the next day you're good for nothing. Hope you are okay Victor. Tom
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