Insomnia

Blackwater tide no longer functional blemishes of toxins Frankenfish contamination environmental risk, insomnia spurs. In and out thoughts Mind-worry cycle of self rule in free flowing confetti that won't anchor No streaks of mindful grace Never one with the stilled darkness Only splintered images of disappointments stacked like packing crates. Unable to count sheep (too distracted by their calm cud chewing). Prayer for the dispatch of quiet's mind To barter all for a drug to quell wakefulness Relief from restlessness in mind numbing news over making wrong choices my fall through the sky. Powerless to erase a brain script of failure, to know a measured response to love. Smack the pillows again A beating in progress None the softer for brain waves on cushions of letdown soiled by secrets. Poem revised January 21, 2021