Insidious

I know the Bible says REJOICE but still I have lost my PEACE silence has become my loudest SHOUT, because of the screaming voices within me I couldn't let OUT fear and anxiety invaded my HEART while pain and sadness ensnared my MIND maybe that's why I feel so Lost cause they all marked me from BEHIND I don't understand myself ANYMORE because of what I have been THROUGH silence has become my new NORMAL cause my voice has failed to escape my darkest inner ROOM please don't laugh at me when am silent cause it wasn't my CHOICE pain made me shout out the loudest and since then I have lost my VOICE yes, I still hear the cries of my soul deep WITHIN trapped BETWEEN the horrific walls of heart with scarry emotional ENGRAVINGS Stop! people for once just listen to ME Silence is turning me into a beast and am no longer who I used to BE Lord come to my aid sooner or my chest will BURST cause pain,sadness, and stress has filled it to the FULLEST I am indeed helpless, afraid to look even in the mirror cause it reflects my WORST now I have finally opened up that when it comes to pretending, am just not the BEST back then my mouth used to be wide open like the uncovered POT shouting too much while my peaceful personality began to ROT But I am now tired of hearing internal CRIES so I have to go in and make peace with the VOICES