Inside of Me

A great sorrow is consuming me, tearing me 

from inside causing insanity. But you're the 

one who pulled me from my misery, and I'll 

walk through hell to make sure they don't take 

you away from me. They say that my 

expression of feeling is shown inappropriately, 

they say it's a sign of a teenage impurity. But

it's what's deep inside that they can't see, all 

these feelings down inside of me. 

 

 

As my world falls away, and I've yet to see a 

reason, all my emotions begin to decay and my

feelings go on the run. And I'm scared to be the

only one, whose hourglass is half full before all 

is said and done. These thoughts trickle down,

as all of your pain fills the air around. I guess

time is catching up behind me, but that doesn't

mean these problems are gonna control me. 

 

 

Again I found myself wandering around in the 

dark, filled with my anger, agony and the pain

that comes with being apart. My thought I'm 

thinking, I hope aren't misleading, I only want 

what's best for you, not what's best for me to

do. I'm tired of all the false accusations, all the

misinterpreted contemplations. It has darkened 

the light in my eye and created a hole in my soul,

but I'm still fighting hard not to lose control.

 

 

I told you I'd always be there for you, to always

help you to fight the pain you're suffering through.

But now I'm confused as to what to do, consumed

by guilt of the pain I'm causing you. My heart feels

as though it wants to shatter into ash, as if my 

body, mind, and soul were made of glass. I'm here

today only knowing that because of this I may be 

gone tomorrow, this thought fills me with anger, pain, 

and the greatest of sorrow.

 

 

I've been knocked from grace, and cast into hell, the 

agony eating away at my shell. It has come to the

point that at times I feel dead inside, running isn't an

option since theirs nowhere to hide. Crying out, because

I made you cry, the pain this has caused you is killing 

me inside. When you cry I cry, 'cause deep down apart

of me is trying to die, and there is no explanation, and 

no reason why.

Copyright © Zack Seals | Year Posted 2008

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