Inside

Edit inside by Elena Volden on Tuesday, August 31, 2010 at 5:22pm i dont know why things change.. or they die. my eyes are like silver, dulled throughout time.. and my heart feels like glass that just won't break. all this weight is nothing. i wander within the walls i've built; the absence of certainty keeps me awake when i want nothing more than to dream. you give me hope. but only to distract me from the reality that i lack the capacity to infinitly love. i want so badly to scream the songs the angels sing when i'm on my knees, but it seems i've forgotten the words. the idea of goodbye impairs me; surrenders me to fate. things change, or they die.. i think of you, more often than i'd like to admit.