Insecurities

One thing I always ignored and i never wanted to see That first I shoud be the one who loves me No one else is gonna come around on a golden horse No one else is gonna want to waste time with me, counting stars No one will ever try to make me feel like i am loved No one will hold my hand and give my insecurities a tough fight No one will choose me as their fav food and ignore others like a junk diet No one will ever promise me that they'll never make me feel betrayed Truth have always been my most imp value No one will ever respect that and won't make efforts to stay No one will ever act fair with me until I treat myself right May be its me who give people the power to put others above me Maybe i shouldn't even put up the fight Maybe its fate who is trying to teach me to stop running To teach me that love will come to me eventually, even if this world is cunning To teach me every lesson loneliness offers to teach To acquire my mastery in it so that in the end i could help people to preach But what about now? Now i feel so hollow What about the fact that this harsh reality I need to swallow What about all the aching I feel inside I feel like I will explode, if all that pain i hide Sometimes I wish, I could peep from heaven after the time i die Just to see if anyone will shed a tear Just to see if anyone will cry