Insecure, Isolated

Dedicated to Shawn Mendes’ In My Blood song… Living alone with an anxious, languishing mindset Living on my own with a whole lot of regret The walls in all four directions caving in Love, where have you been? I ponder once again I wander in the woods of my mindset once again I wonder once again I squander my time time and time again and again I’m in tears again for many, many years now I need some godly cheers spiritually somehow My blood pumping in my heart is tainted with loneliness I can’t chill in the chanting voices in my head of distress I’m insecure and I need a cure I’m insecure and I need to endure I’m insecure and isolated — this feeling deep down is impure Help me out hopefully… Free me for an eternity… I’m in my crying captivity… I’m emotionally isolated, complicatedly isolated, simply isolated I’m jaded and hated and I anticipated this sorrowful moment in dread I need a distraction and an affectionate embrace to get me through this instead Can’t get over my X’s and O’s and I bet you can’t either — put us both at ease My lamentable life of strife is a disaster in angsty uncertainties… It’s more than a hundred degrees in Havasu I feel lost inside the muse of you, I love you…I do… I ponder once again I wander in the woods of my mindset once again I wonder once again I squander my time time and time again and again I’m in tears again for many, many years now I need some godly cheers spiritually somehow My blood pumping in my heart is tainted with loneliness I can’t chill in the chanting voices in my head of distress I’m insecure and I need a cure I’m insecure and I need to endure I’m insecure and isolated — this feeling deep down is impure Help me out hopefully… Free me for an eternity… I’m in my crying captivity… I’m emotionally isolated, complicatedly isolated, simply isolated I’m jaded and hated and I anticipated this sorrowful moment in dread I need a distraction and an affectionate embrace to get me through this instead Somebody heal me right away, For my soul is filled with dismay It’s just the way it is, but it’ll be okay Isolate this feeling of emptiness; boy, I wish I could simply talk to you honestly I’m sick and tired of sleeping alone in anguish I should be a better man now, baby I want glee and happiness from the time I was younger I’m unsure about my future and it’s a mighty blur My mindset is tormented with insecurities I’m isolating myself tonight to put me at ease So please…understand… Take my withering hand… Things got so out of hand… Squander our time in liberty’s land together and forevermore… You’re the one I adore…you’re the only one I truly adore to the core… I’m in tears again for many, many years now I need some godly cheers spiritually somehow My blood pumping in my heart is tainted with loneliness I can’t chill in the chanting voices in my head of distress I’m insecure and I need a cure I’m insecure and I need to endure I’m insecure and isolated — this feeling deep down is impure Help me out hopefully… Free me for an eternity… I’m in my crying captivity… I’m emotionally isolated, complicatedly isolated, simply isolated I’m jaded and hated and I anticipated this sorrowful moment in dread I need a distraction and an affectionate embrace to get me through this instead Embrace me in the dark, isolate the loneliness inside Caress me like a song given to the lonely lark in the park in confident pride I wish you could be by my side and there, you’d surely abide We’ll express our regrets and let them subside… They’re caving in once again, but where do you hide?