Inner Peace

Patience, love, compassion, trust, peace, Are any of these for me? Everyday is a battle, just to get out of bed, I sometimes feel as though I am spinning my wheels, and going nowhere fast. Doing for others, always trying to please, trying my best to compromise, never getting ahead, Not certain what the future has in store for me, to think about it, I just start to dread, I want to run and hide, but I know I can't, I have come a long ways, I should be PROUD, you would think I would be walking Strong and confident, but that's not how I want to be seen, you see I can't stand up and take credit for my good deeds, to do so, would really put me in a UN comfortable place, I can't speak up for myself, I have always kept my positive side deep down inside. My inner peace is deep, dark, and UNseen to my outside world, because I was never told That I was special, loved, or to be proud, but now I hope to use my strength and love that I now have for myself, as a tool to help others, who like me, always thinking they were better UNseen.. If you want to practice Compassion, you first must show,and feel it for yourself!