Inner Demons

U I've had dreams before, But life had something instore. I failed in a lot of ways Had to cry for many days. Success was a myth I could never be with. Am I still the same me? That same person I see When I look in the mirror, With that look of horror Etched in those brown eyes. How time really flies One would wonder. Each failure was a reminder Of how worthless I am. Every smile was a sham That no one seemed to know. Happiness you see is for show Yet, no one realized the truth That pained me even in my youth. Tried to think of one happy past A total blank came up fast. Hating where I'am now I had to ask myself how I finally ended up here? To the very future I fear. Future I hoped never to face But it seemed I lost the chase. Loneliness has found me, Emptiness wont let me be. Hating what I have become That bright light, I long to welcome. Maybe when I finally do Then I'd be happy too.