Inged

Ing/ed He was: timed lying down waiting braving it, the pain, invincible grimacing sweating hedging-his bets not panicking-yet pacing gasping falling still breathless void stopped still heavy rock board immoveable stared at no power darkness panic screaming doors open battery - dead agog chaos not alive taken transported sirens trolley dash assessed intubated injected prodded pulse adrenalin- more and more faint heart:beats monitors sounds and uniforms, drinks and heat on the corridor anticipation, but we all know it. However, where there’s life there’s hope- right? more waiting pensive heartfelt and pained glances exchanged more waiting pumped injected monitored looked at sung to shouted at Blood Oxygen Levels Decrease when taken off breathing machine which, has kindly been breathing for him feet felt-massaged prayed to-our little prince Shazad no movement, pale cold still eyes slightly ajar grim future without him- no I can’t; I won’t imagine unendurable. More time docs try.. okay- it’s 6.50am Xmas Eve 2014 ‘He’s poorly now’..... says the nurse. Blood oxygen dropping fast... sats going down, down down sustained only by adrenalin anyway: He went 10.30 pm on 23/12/2104 in the house, in the hallway. He’s gone officially - taken. Rest in peace, my little brother with mum and dad ok! X