Infamous Notion

Over 1200 poems I have constructed, written bled, cried for, endured tremendous insanity What do I have to show for it... just more pencils, just more pens 5 more unused notepads and a decaying, boring, repetitive, bland outlook on the rest of the world If I were to clone myself, I'd beat myself black and blue for reasons I can't uncover for I scribbled all my mistakes and silent distastes Love, what infamous notion did I ever truly believe I'd find it I'm only 18 the only my age believes in are flings what a blasphemous thing Am I overrreacting to my recent weeks I could be Don't remind me I am aware some lives are worse than my mine by 10x but I'm not living their lives just dwelling in my own personal mini tragedies As the hour sinks into 9, I sink into darkness ever so slowly I have the urge to seclude myself in my cocoon of covers but it's been said and done I chuckle at the thought that I was believed myself invincible hahahahahaha ....I'm only indefinitely vulnerable