In My Pain I Isolate

In my pain I isolate In my pain I isolate Look down Judge and feel bad In my pain I go inside Scream As if I am all alone As if no one else Gets this pain In my pain I punish Eat Act out And dream of days before I lie to myself And wish that I Would not have failed Wish that I Would have gone along With Closed my eyes And held my nose And existed still Within Not listening to the voice That said enough Not listening to the voice That whispered More That voice That said Not your fault No need To punish any longer That call That voice that said Rise That voice that said Lay waste to your pretense Lay waste to your lies Lay waste to your anguish Lay waste let it die In my pain I isolate Yet another voice Through that pain Keeps calling Keeps calling Rise Keeps calling Breathe Keeps calling Now Be open Allow For while Darkness May envelope Your soul Right now At the end of that darkness A new day begins And light breaks part Darkness Light breaks part Pain In my pain I isolate Yet in the past two days Came back Joined together Sat listened Shared Served And healing once more begins (Answering the question: Is my soul awake now?)