In my mind

Standing outside Nowhere to hide A child Meek and mild Watching my siblings play Around them I couldn't stay So many emotions No notion What they even meant Into a well I fell The world went on without me Nothing there for me to see Darkness was my day Alone, I liked to stay And in this well That I fell I heard the voices talking Sounds of people walking on by No one heard me cry Had no clue why I felt so alone Lots of love was showed me I just could not see Words were blah blah blah All I saw Was the same, the night and day Lonely was my way Was I there to stay Life was bad I felt sad No one else was like me I could see From life I started hiding In my mind abiding A dark horse I was riding Locked in my mind I find All these words running wild and free Only I could see Music from heaven above Filling me with love My word Was never heard But the words in my head When I wrote them down instead I cry out from down below The words need to slow At times banging in my head I started organizing them instead Took away the fear That was always near Forming them into that which I wanted to say I could communicate this way I like lonely but it is something I also hate But it is my fate Am I out of that well I cannot tell People leave me unsure Do not believe there is a cure One day I found a door Opened it a bit then some more Slowly found my way out of my mind Left the darkness behind The light I did find Made my word Heard Still I talk to very few Lost everyone I knew Old I grew Inside my mind I left life behind I am but a child But not so meek and mild Still lost My heart is frost Scared to talk So by myself I walk Play my music I hear In the words and music I feel no fear But I still shed a tear As the music floats on by Shimmering so beautiful that is makes me cry Sometimes it makes me high It is something I don't share Don't dare I'm crazy My mind hazy The way I see things The beauty it brings The calmness I sometimes feel It's a big deal In a world I don't understand at all In my mind it is not always a ball In sadness I still fall But I get by Sometimes cry My mind of madness Sometimes brings me gladness When the music finds it's way to my hand Life is so easy to understand