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In My Mind

I wished for a flood Because it is easier to throw away wet things. But it did not happen. A fire flicked across my mind, but was quickly discarded. I hoped that God did not even sense this in my mind. I dared not even let the whole thought in, For fear it would be realized. A fire destroys everything. Why is completely entertaining to go through other people’s piles, When we are notoriously reluctant to go through our own? Because it is such drudgery. I was handing over the last of the things I felt I could comfortably discard today. It should have felt like a relief. It could have been, If I had been more cutthroat. I have kept at least twice as many things as I should have kept. Maybe when you get older and you have to pare down to a room Full of stuff for a small apartment it is a relief. Maybe it forces you to really look at everything in A whole new way. Here I sit, surrounded by my own maniacal idiocy, in the midst Of things that no one else will want for any reason when I am gone. It would be so handy to know your end date. Right?

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Anisha Dutta

Date: 7/1/2018 9:47:00 PM

My days are gone. In last phase of life I have also started to discard. Warm wishes.

Caren Krutsinger
Date: 7/2/2018 4:11:00 AM

Who knows if it is the last phase of life? My great-aunt passed a month before she would have been 106. We might have two more phases, Anisha.

Susan Ashley

Date: 6/30/2018 10:09:00 PM

Caren, I love to travel with you through your poems' introspective and poetic lines, it is always a satisfying and captivating journey. Wondrous poetry especially the last four lines. Warmest wishes always my friend.. ~Susan

Caren Krutsinger
Date: 7/1/2018 7:17:00 AM

Thank you Susan. I am on a roll here, because the clutter that seemed to ruin the garage, and take all sense of play out of me is gone from the garage. Some of it, unfortunately, I have squirrelled into the room in the house that I decluttered three weeks ago.

Sunlite Wanter

Date: 6/30/2018 6:16:00 PM

I look at my pile of received greeting cards, and I have a hard time throwing any one of them away. It's like throwing away the person who sent them. But I have to! Oh, woe is me!

Caren Krutsinger
Date: 7/1/2018 7:18:00 AM

Understood; I have 19 tubs of family photos. 19 full sized 60 gallon tubs of them.

Darlene De Beaulieu

Date: 6/30/2018 5:38:00 PM

Hello Caren I do think I would like to know my due date and sometimes I do not. It depends what my mood is. Do you? I do not think any of my family would be interested in my stuff. But I could be wrong. Have a nice evening my friend.