Njeri Hunjeri Poet Bio

In Church

First I didn't want to go
I was hurting so much to see myself in that holy building 
But I went, I had too
This was my one day commitment in a week to be in the house of Lord with the family of Christ

I sat in church, in the back as I always do
Filled with so much anger
My heart aching so much
I couldn't understand why..
I was resisting the urge to be on my phone and type some angry words
I decided to be optimistic so I wrote the words below 
From the little teaching I heard from the pastor: 

God's handwriting
 
God help me
Grow
reproduce
introduce
learn
appreciate
accept
Be wise

And I felt better for a minute but my mind went back to the issue...
I wanted to scream
My eyes were welling up 
Luckly my glasses are dark
The congregation laughed to the jokes, the pastor continued teaching

This feeling. ..
Took me back few years ago as I sat in my college poetry club
I had poetry that I thought was really good
But the other eight people or so on the table
Always thought otherwise 
I read their poems, like they did mine and told my honest take on them
Like they did mine, but they couldn't understand it
My poetry language was so different from theirs
my metaphors, my symbolism, my themes never made sense 
To them
I couldn't understand why...

Am I that different even in poetry?
So I stopped attending that club because i felt like it always brought me down
I wasn't growing 
And I stopped writing poetry all together 
The only thing that gave me voice since my teenage years

But now I get it, I write for me
And maybe the few that may understand me

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James Fraser September 8, 2015 at 2:27 PM A joy to read njeri, and always write for you, always, hugs//James :) :) Njeri Hunjeri September 17, 2015 at 2:42 PM thank you James. I appreciate the visit

Constance La France September 3, 2015 at 2:52 PM Njeri, be you no matter what anyone says. I also used to go to a poetry club that did not appreciate my poems and I did not understand a word of theirs to me they were senseless words so I stopped. Thanks for visiting my poem, through the eyes .. . . Njeri Hunjeri September 3, 2015 at 4:55 PM Thank you Broken Wings for the visit and the comment. That means alot to me. God bless

Darlene Gifford September 3, 2015 at 10:49 AM You have learned to be true to yourself and your own beliefs. Good for you! Follow your own heart and you'll never go wrong. You expressed your feelings well in this poem. There is a saying," You can't please all of the people all of the time, but you can please some of the people some of the time." The ones we connect with end up being our friends. Count me among them. ~~Darlene Njeri Hunjeri September 3, 2015 at 4:54 PM That is so sweet. Am glad to have as one of my friends. God bless you Darlene.

Olive Eloisa Guillermo - Fraser September 3, 2015 at 9:48 AM We are beautiful, unique and good into some particular things.. Our differences makes this world a more exciting world to live in.. =') the last two lines are a wow.. keep writing!!powerful write! ~Olive Eloisa =') Njeri Hunjeri September 3, 2015 at 4:52 PM Thank you Olive for your visit and sweet comment. This means alot to me. God bless

Marion Mwangi September 3, 2015 at 9:20 AM its good to be different i always think if we were all the same life would be boooring. i loved every word and every line...maybe because it spoke to me. nyc one Njeri:) Njeri Hunjeri September 3, 2015 at 4:51 PM Thank you Marion for this visit and for loving every line and every word. This means alot to me. God bless