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Imperfectly Skinny

All my life I've been called 
-The skinny girl
-You're too thin
-The fragile girl
I was bullied for the size I was born with and can't help fixing it to their perfection 
Always getting disgusting looks in their eyes
And the unending questions of - HOW and WHY I'm so skinny
People can be thoughtless of how their words may cut deeper than a knife 
Often I'd walked away with stinging pain spreading in my chest while hot tears flowing hastily
I used to wonder if being skinny was so inhuman and was it worth living 
I used to believe that being naturally skinny was perfectly ugly
Everyone is trying to feed me 
I've tried many styles of massages 
I've consumed many local herbals and vitamins prescribed by doctors
I've tried all there is to gain
Yet none has really does anything.
-Because I was born just the way God has create me to His perfection
I was beaten in their criticisms upon my waistline size
I was angry to the world 
-But upon realizing how mean people can be
I've changed since and
Love my imperfectly skinny self... (Smile)

Written by Akkina R Downing
                 11-13-16

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FJ Thomas

Date: 4/8/2018 4:58:00 PM

Too fat, too skinny, to short, too dark ....it's amazing how many negative 'too's' exist in the eyes of others. Wonderful write Akkina!

Akkina Downing
Date: 4/8/2018 6:23:00 PM

Very tru my friend. Thanks for coming by, truly appreciate it! Hugs :)

Silent One

Date: 12/13/2017 4:38:00 PM

There are women who would die for your figure... you look petfect to me.... deep emotional honest poem...

Akkina Downing
Date: 12/13/2017 5:16:00 PM

I used to buy 1X t-shirt and shirt just so I didn't have to look so small. Of course I used belt sometimes and it did make me look a little full figure... Lol! Thanks dear Silent One... hugs and smiles :)

Andrea Dietrich

Date: 11/18/2017 7:43:00 PM

I'm glad you learned to love yourself. I know a BUNCH of ladies that are probably so envious of you because they can't lose weight and have been fat all their lives. I am finally at a weight that is not so bad. We can never feel perfect but when we are healthy , we can at least feel we are the best we can be. I am glad to have seen this one. The title drew me in.

Akkina Downing
Date: 11/18/2017 9:04:00 PM

Thank you so much Andrea, yes I've learned and accepted myself as it is. I never understood why we can't just be happy the way we are, but then I also learned that we humans are imperfect and so we will never be satisfied... Lol! I'm happy for you too and good for you :) hugs and smiles always and cheers to healthy lives :) xoxo

Edward Mccall

Date: 8/12/2017 7:38:00 PM

What a powerful piece Kena I love the reaffirmation of your self-esteem at the end. God has made you just how he want you and all that matters in the end Is that he loves you.I know it's easier said than done but just keep being that wonderfully talented Akkina R. Downing who's is poetry is absolutely beautiful. After all the heart where the true beauty lies and from what I've read the beauty of yours is unsurpassed.

Akkina Downing
Date: 8/12/2017 8:09:00 PM

What I went thru was depressing and unkind. People used to asked me if I was anerixic. But all is behind me now, after all I've tried, running and walking have helped me gained a few lbs :) I am now just made it to three digits, so happy :) thanks so much Ed. Your comment had me smiling :)

Edward Mccall
Date: 8/12/2017 7:39:00 PM

I'm so sorry my phone did it again It spelled your name Kena.

John Fleming

Date: 5/7/2017 5:19:00 PM

You look imperfectly-perfect to me, Akkina :) Nice to make your acquaintance...The pleasure is all mine! My best regards, Akkina. :) john P.s Thank you for visiting and commenting on my poem...You will be most welcome at anytime.

Akkina Downing
Date: 5/7/2017 7:13:00 PM

Thank you John and please to meet you too :)

Gary Bateman

Date: 12/14/2016 2:31:00 AM

Hello Akkina!! A very passionate and powerful Bio for sure. It's so unfortunate that many people in any society have to put up with any mindless and inappropriate prejudice. Accepting oneself, as Paul Callus indicated below is so, so important. I trust you've become stronger from all of this. Just keep being and doing who you are. This is so very, very important. A BIG SEVEN FROM ME!! Cheers and Best, Gary

Akkina Downing
Date: 12/14/2016 4:08:00 AM

Thank you, Gary, yes People can be mindless and rude but I've learned too much to allow anything to bother me. I am stronger and happier :)

Paul Callus

Date: 12/4/2016 9:55:00 AM

At a young age people's comments tend to be taken very seriously; they could result in either happiness or pain. What matters is being healthy. Blessed are those who learn to live with themselves! Accepting who we are can put a lovely smile on our face, and you definitely don't lack one:) Regards // paul

Akkina Downing
Date: 11/18/2017 8:50:00 PM

OMG, I don't know how I missed your beautiful comment but I thank you so much... hugs and smiles :)