Im Trying

The sky never really seemed to break up The sun never wanted to show up The innocence of a sentence is lost as soon as it is tossed In the pit from which I speak, I am far from weak But strong I’m not, determination I got but I have weak spot It is intertwined with emotion a friendly potion from which I sip After which I forget that friendship is a remedy for lonely But for me the cure is absolutely unnecessary Nevertheless, I got to keep moving forward Because she loves me she needs me but honestly it’s scary The way she depends on me loves me unconditionally Forgives my faults even though she keeps complaining At times I don’t pay attention to what it is she is saying Because I know, that no matter how slow We will once again grow past this nonsense Our fight will be past tense and we will utter a white flag sentence I love you, yeah I love you too And I say it, and I know I do But not to the extent to where she dwells She actually visits hell, when I forget to kiss her goodnight Forget to call her, or tell her I miss her, all these reasons could be cause for a fight She firmly believes that my time is best spend with her Any other logic will not occur, nor concur So I sit To conjure up a strategy, a fantasy to romantically sweep her off her feet Place my finger on her lips, don’t speak, but bask in the ambiance Let yourself get carried away, by white wings attached to a display Omitted by words I can’t say so as I sit I think this is OK But all these thoughts are for naught because not a single flower has been bought Not a single kiss has been brought to her lips that would tantalize her spine To let her know that she is mine So now I have lost her as well And now I find myself in hell Nevertheless, I got to keep moving forward Because the present moves with a pace that will deface Any case brought before it posthaste Be it future or past it will cast a spell so enticing Any hope I had will sing a song of defeat My heart is weak, but my mind is strong My actions are righteous my words are wrong A walking contradiction a cause with no conviction An elaborate fantasy lacking fiction I can see why they do not want me Could be my honesty or just my insanity I’m withholding a message cause I know you’re not listening You hear the words but you’re not listening This is for the world to see How twisted it has made me Nevertheless, I got to keep moving forward So I will