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I'm still sane

I'm trying my hardest to portray 
That through all this sadness I'm still sane
But my mind is racing, I can't break free
Will someone please rescue me

I'm sick of feeling the way I do 
But the past is making me feel so blue
What can I do to make things better
Maybe I'll start by writing a letter 

Pen to paper, thoughts set free
The way you loved me damaged me
A black cloud over me always there
Pain and torture iv had my fair share

Maybe there was always something wrong me
Maybe the truth will set me free
Maybe darkness was my fate
Maybe others can relate

Simple things I can no longer do
Broken hearted through and through 
What usually brings me so much joy
Makes me mad and makes me annoyed 

Music is my therapist 
Since day one, headphones in bought me bliss
But now I just let the songs play
I don't even think "she" could make me stay

I don't want to die, I'm not suicidal 
But I feel I'm just fighting for survival 
Smile on my face, but my mind is blank
I just want to take my life back

Coming up are lots of unknowns
When I think the worse I feel so alone
Many have hurt me, I ignored it all
Now I feel that was my downfall 

If I had stood up for myself and put up a fight 
Would all of the wrongs be made right
Or would she still stopped loving me
I suppose the future is not for us to forsee 

I'm trying my hardest to stay afloat 
My mind in darkness, so these poems I wrote 
Music playing but no joy yet
So I'll sit here and light another cigarette 

My heart has never been so broken 
Failed as a child, my truth never spoken 
For all that happend is now in the past
I know this sadness won't always last

I'm letting you know I'm still sane 
I will fight through all this pain 
I will make it through to the other side
But there are still so many tears left to cry

Broken hearts do eventually mend
I won't let this be my end
When all is better and all said and done
Maybe I'll see I'm the lucky one 

I say I'm fine, but I'm miserable 
But being happy is preferable 
Complicated playing followed by I'm with you
Her music and love will see me through 

I'm trying my hardest to portray 
That through all this sadness I'm still sane 
Enough lies and games have been played
That's the end of my poem, I'm glad you stayed

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