I'm Sorry: Rewritten

I’m sorry… I’m not perfect, Yet you expect me to be. I mess up. I make mistakes. But I don’t care. I’m sorry you hate me For how much I have changed. It’s a direct result Of the consequences of your actions. The repercussions of the pain you’ve caused me. Also, I lied. I do care. Sorry I let you get to me. I never uttered my feelings Because I knew you wouldn’t understand. It was awkward in your presence And I struggled to build courage. My voice always betrayed me; It never felt safe with you. I’m sorry you think I’m too nice, Too forgiving as you’ve said. You seem to hate me Because I’ve forgiven you Over and again though you never deserved. The night I broke down, Sobbing in your ear. You found my breaking point, Said it’s something you don’t have. You wanted to see if I did. I gave you power over me. All of it in your hands And you used it to hurt me. Always. What’s worse is you knew The power you had. I thought you didn’t. Your feelings were always first and foremost over mine. You’d hurt others just to hurt me. You lied and blamed it on me. Had me doubt everyone and everything. I’m sorry I wasn’t there Though only because you pushed me away. I’ve disappointed you. I’ve apologized unnecessarily And you hate it. I loved you And you couldn't comprehend that. Your fear came in volumes You could not fathom. Mostly, I’m not sorry we’re not friends. I’m just sorry I never said goodbye. Randomly went into the first poem I wrote on here and started rewriting it. Here's the version. (Chose to post because I like comparing old works to new works.)