I'M Not Ready Part 2

Daughter: Why? Why did you do this to me? I wasn’t ready to come out And it hurt mommy It hurt really badly But then it stopped You dumped me in a toilet I didn’t even get a chance to say good bye Why mommy? What did I do wrong? I loved you mommy Didn’t you love me? Didn’t you believe in me? I promised I was going to make you proud Did you think I couldn’t do it? I sorry for not being good enough for you I see you cry every night mommy, holding your stomach More then you did when I was there Everyone else seems happy but you I wish you had let me be there for you To love you unconditionally But you didn’t want me to, I noticed you never look in the mirror anymore You don’t spend hours on your hair and makeup anymore Remember how I was going to be your twin? Is that why you never look? Because of me? Probably not You don’t care about me You killed me Maybe you crying over daddy He left you after you left me I would’ve stayed mommy I would’ve made sure you were happy I would’ve loved you forever But you didn’t give me a chance Mother: I’m sorry I’m so sorry I messed up They told me it wasn’t alive But I saw the little body Bloody, tiny, and helpless I can’t do anything but cry My boyfriend left me My parents still won’t look at me And now I’ve lost my only baby I’m alone and empty And a murderer I didn’t even give her a chance To see, breath, smile, cry, love, touch, smell, fail, succeed To Live, and I regret it