I'M Not Ready Part 1

Mother: Shivering nights follow me as my stomach grows I feel her inside me I can picture her face, smile, personality Worth such a huge future But I couldn’t give it to her I’m not ready… He doesn’t want her We couldn’t handle it The pressure, the responsibility And god the things that are happening to my body I’m not ready I’m not My mom cries whenever she looks at me My dad doesn’t even look I couldn’t take care of her by myself Maybe…maybe I can give her away To a family that could love her until I’m ready There’s so much I haven’t done Goals I haven’t fulfilled All my dreams are gone Because of a mistake A onetime mistake I learned my lesson But I can’t take care of this baby She needs so much more, She deserves so much more I can’t let her come into this world like this I’m not ready Daughter: Its ok mommy You don’t have to worry You’re not alone I still love you You can still follow your dreams if you try And teach me how to do right I’m going to be a sweet baby People are going to call me your twin Don’t you like the sound of that mommy? I promise to do my best in everything So I can make you proud mommy When I come We’ll have each other And that’s all that's going to matter We’ll prove everyone wrong And do better than anyone expected We can do it mommy You can do it I believe in you Mother: I can’t do this I can’t I’ll try again when I’m ready It’s not even alive yet So it’ll be ok He said he would leave me My dad said I was stupid And my mom… She had such high hopes and dreams for me I can still do it I can make them proud But not with this thing growing in me It’s ok It can’t feel anything And later on ill be the best mother ever But not now I’m not ready