I'M No Longer Myself

I'm swinging on alcohol , Puffing smoke from day to dawn , Locomoting up steets to downtown, Inquisitoring for that one pill . Such pill to avail me sleep But the doctors say they have such prescriptions . I wake up everyday with chiliad of declinations , Accompanied by a storm of gazillion wishes , But still, this life keeps going . I'm no longer myself no! my gullet always craves to deglutite something , In the greeting of the sunlight And the dawn of midnight Who am i really ?? I once took a stand in life , Saw myself in such perfect family kind , But it seems to me ,i'm just against time . I looked while my companions dying,helpless I failed to pay heed at each funi .. I got broken relationships, But still i fail to fix , Now i got some bad habits i can't modify. Such plane of success once booked , crushed in the middle of nowhere . Today im here chasing this , that and the next after , How about this disease eating me in inches avery day , And still,the insomnia has no mercy for me . I act smiley with such big belly Wearing white teeth that speak hello tunes But im dying ,slowly Alone ,with nobody noticising Who Am I,really ?