I'M Lonely

3 am night rides Staring at the new moon and the stars in the night sky My mind Is in the air and I blame the element of my zodiac sign My mind Drifting off once again In the clouds Because the ground is to loud Neurons going wild Sending me old vids and pics Like damn you remember this As quickly a the memory brings the smile on my face Envy has to step in its place Am I wrong for being jealous of couples Am I wrong that I no longer want to be humble Am I wrong that when I see myself I see nothing, bit internal trouble Am I wrong that I have a constant struggle with My mind having, back to back conflicts with my heart To the point where it affects my art. And I hold back on anyone who starts Feeling me I don't even know where to start Like who do I go to. Where do I go to So I can show someone a piece of mind So they can show me a peace of mind But they can't have my heart My heart Pumping ink in my viens The love muscle guess that means it loves pain. My heart pumps these signals in waves Getting lost in old writings and old memories. Having conflicts with my mind because it won't let anything get to me 5 am sun rise My mind and my heart fight One thing is for sure... Besides finding the next memory and take flight. They both afraid of the outcome of explaining to people what goes on within those nights I'm lonely...