I'm just a girl

(Deep breath, like a sigh) I'm just a girl, they say, just a fragile thing, but beneath this skin a storm is raging, a constant, churning wave, And I'm just a girl, yes, and the ticking clock in my chest is a maddening drum, it echoes in the empty hallways of my mind, a relentless, hurried pace. I’m just a girl but the weight of it all is pressing down, a heavy blanket, smothering light and leaving only shadows shifting on the wall, I yearn, I yearn, for a quiet, a stillness that the world refuses, a cessation of this relentless push, a softening of this hard, unyielding earth , Oh, I yearn, i yearn, for the final note, the echo that fades into silence, a release from this tight drawn bow, this unending, nervous strain , Because I'm just a girl, and the days are long, and the nights are restless, full of the dreams i cant grasp and the fears i can't escape, And I’m just a girl, but the tapestry of my life is fraying at the edges, the colors bleeding into a blurry, indistinct mess; this frantic, endless searching , And I yearn, i yearn, like a parched throat in a desert for the rain, for the finality of a closing door, the peace of falling asleep and not waking again, I’m just a girl, and I see it all, the looming shadows, the promises broken, the potential unrealized, the endless circle, the constant, crushing weight, So I yearn, I yearn, for the final page, the turning off of the light, the quiet, dark abyss, the sweet, sweet silence at the end.