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I'm dying and it's okay

I'm dying and it's okay because I get to die my own death being me without my identity thief jay townsend johnson henry climbing into my window searching for my passport birth certificates marriage certificates high school diplomas shot records of my children military records military medals I sat afraid of my shadow suffering anxiety disorder panic disorder unablebto leave my home writing poetry suffering in silence in dire need i contacted the fbi fearing my safety because i wore wires pregnant for the fbi for years living in fear Jamaican killers would someday murder me I reported her april 2003 to special agent Paula brand Chicago field office also Leroy Heimbach Milwaukee as i sat panting panic attacks jay townsend johnson henry she shot into my window finally arriving with her gunman rasta yago to assassinate me he was killed at my feet her main goal was to impersonate me with Peter gargano and claim royalties for my poems sadly Peter died leaving my imposter in my wake stalking taunting portraying herself as me actually cashing annuity payments from my structure settlement on behalf of my traumatic brain injury my life took several turns after traumatic brain injury severe traumatic headaches chronic ptsd chronic anxiety disorder unable to be in crowds or leave my home without a close loved one to take me to doctors this is my life since october 1999 I began submitting poetry for Montell Williams Ms. Survivors sadly 2003 Ciro Gargano arson murderer of 9 person according to the fbi he and my abusive husbands set blazes that resulted in 9 deaths i sat writing in a journal for years Ciro broke in my home 1998 during the fire that killed victim 9 and saw my journal about the fires i kelp quiet for years so Ciro was furious he planned my death then 2003 that's when he arrived arrived with Jay Townsend Johnson Henry became fatally obsessed created hell on earth because she was sleeping with my abusive husband awaiting plotting my death I've  boldly taken a stand to end my own life due to break ins threats stalking blackmail extortion including attempting to frame me set up falsehood attempts and severe identity fraud carried out by Jamaican jay townsend Johnson Henry i want the world to know in the event of my death please contact the fbi my loved ones because jay Townsend Johnson Henry is totally responsible for ny murder accidents any harm if I I'm unable to write a final suicide note this is all I have my poetry my writings which I shall die writing my suicide with take place only because I will kill myself before I allow these Jamaican killers to harm me in any way with that I'm dying and its okay I am dead and it's okay for my family know this because I served for the fbi wearing wires pregnant buying weapons and drugs from corrupt officers to save lives so many youths were dying in Chicago from gun violence guns in the wrong hands I just needed to save lives in the process I became a casualty and I'm okay with that because lots of live were saved seeing the many gun violence murders deaths injuries still occurring I know I died helping to save lives I feel blessed to be apart of the longest war on American soil the war on weapons and drugs there are so many wonderful law enforcement unfortunately these were junk sick officers working for gang leader as hitmen from shooting to poisoning informants confidential human sources which is why I have decided to end my own life to protect my family from these domestic terrorists Gargano crime family of Madison Wisconsin John Alite John Gotti jr. Enforcer imposter  jay townsend johnson henry catrina bell donaldson mckissack gangster disciples of Wisconsin whom has placed contract hit on my life because I refused to allow jay townsend johnson henry to impersonate my life ending my own lifen is my only defense against domestic violence domestic terrorists identity fraud arson murderer of 9 organized crime corruption the fbi wired my womb to destroy an yet they have formed a perfect terrorist pack of wolves to extort my life I can't live this way in America God bless the federal bureau of investigation Chicago field office Arlington heights and God bless the United States of America

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