If Only I Had the Courage

If only I had the courage… Constantia Clinic, 16 December, A day forever to be remembered. You last day on this earth, It was only twenty months and a bit since your day of birth. Now today six months later I am staring at the ceiling, Seeking a way out, as there is no healing I can cry for a hundred years, You won’t be coming back, no matter my tears. How do I hold on without letting go? I am a coward, but the world don’t know. Why did you have to leave? I want to follow you but I am too weak! It is just too hard to live my life again, If only I had the courage; I would put my story to an end P.s. While typing these words, I was sitting, crying in my daughter’s room. I was inconsolable. The motion sensor lights switched off, the room was in complete darkness. If only life was that easy; your light switch off if you don’t want to live life. Then I won’t need any courage…