Schylar Rose Poet Free verse

If Only I Had the Courage

If only I had the courage…

Constantia Clinic, 16 December,
A day forever to be remembered.
You last day on this earth,
It was only twenty months and a bit since your day of birth.
Now today six months later I am staring at the ceiling,
Seeking a way out, as there is no healing
I can cry for a hundred years,
You won’t be coming back, no matter my tears.
How do I hold on without letting go?
I am a coward, but the world don’t know.
Why did you have to leave?
I want to follow you but I am too weak!
It is just too hard to live my life again,
If only I had the courage; I would put my story to an end


P.s. While typing these words, I was sitting, crying in my daughter’s room. I was inconsolable. The motion sensor lights switched off, the room was in complete darkness. If only life was that easy; your light switch off if you don’t want to live life. Then I won’t need any courage…

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Lyric Man July 10, 2018 at 11:53 PM Schylar.. You're my midnight read tonight.. try to squeeze in a couple of good poems before bedtime.. so glad I found your creative work!

Casarah Nance July 10, 2018 at 7:14 AM :( There is so much sadness and I feel it through your words. I am so sorry that anyone has to hurt this way. It is okay to be hurt, to be sad, to feel like giving up, but don't give up, You will mourn, you will go through all these emotions, then keep living, and you will reach out help others who feel this, you have much to accomplish in this life. don't bury the pain, but don't let it control you either. don't be scared to cry or reach out. hugs Schylar Rose July 11, 2018 at 12:08 PM Thank you for the comforting words and advice regarding dealing with the pain