If Only

I wish I was the one but I know I am not it is not me that makes you cry tears of despair or tears of joy thoughts of me do not keep you awake each night I am not the first one you think of when you awake in the early hours I cannot shower you in kisses touch your cheek, wrap my arms around you and promise you forever I can't give you long smouldering looks then wink to make you laugh or say something corny and make you cringe My impending visits won't set your heart a flutter my silence or my leaving, just an inconsequential stutter to the day that the one returns and sweeps you off your feet leaving me behind to sit and watch and weep