Vijay Pandit Poet Free verse

If Only

Always there was something to say
A tidbit to share, or a deep new secret
You didn’t want anyone else to hear
Making excuses to be with each other
Reminiscing millions of happy tales
Celebrating graduations and birthdays
Laughing innocently at purposeful silliness
That found home in each other’s solace,

Oblivious as things began to change
When emotions flared every interplay
And glance of your eyes became my stare
And every little touch longed for more
And dreaming of love became a passion,

Oh! how I held you without consent
Hugging and kissing without your knowledge
As you occupied my sleepless nights
Aching my soul in thoughts of romance 
Never telling you how deeply I felt,

Yet, those feelings were eternally etched
In rhythms of lyrics only lovers create
Recalling you fondly in lifelong regret: 

If only I had courage to break my silence
If only I had dared to pledge my heart
If only I had divulged words to my song.

October 25, 2020
If only you knew poetry contest
Sponsor: Silent One

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Valsa George April 8, 2022 at 9:23 AM Sometimes this happens ! The flames of passion we feel for another is kept hidden in our heart and is never exposed or expressed. The other person may not know it ! Finally we feel sad that we didn't divulge it earlier! Silence thus leads to great regrets ! Beautifully expressed, Vijay

Susan Lawrence December 8, 2020 at 6:45 PM Vijay, So beautiful, poignant and viscerally sorrowful. I feel the weight of the timeline of your longing..your if only.... your desire. Thank you for sharing this intimate journey of your heart. Susan

Freddie Robinson Jr. November 20, 2020 at 6:23 AM This is a lovely heart chime poem, which rings true for many of us passenger-in- life romantics, Victor, I know it do for me. You captured a love loss in my life quite poignantly. Pristine poetry, my dear friend. Much love and best wishes for the holiday.

Akkina Downing November 4, 2020 at 4:10 PM I’m 100% sure many of us repeat, IF ONLY... Lol! Beautiful piece, I enjoyed very much so :)

Chuck Melugin October 31, 2020 at 8:19 AM VJ This song won you a trophy from my heart! Line by line! You write your fingers off in greatness!!

Andrea Dietrich October 30, 2020 at 8:49 AM this makes me wonder about the relationship and why things were held back. Deliciously described, Vijay, and congrats for your win.

Harry Horsman October 29, 2020 at 2:27 AM wonderful winner. Vijay.

Angela Crabtree October 27, 2020 at 4:36 PM Beautiful poem, Vijay. Your poetry is always full of emotion. Hope you have great night. :)

Paul Callus October 27, 2020 at 1:50 PM Those "ifs" will probably forever haunt the mind, Vijay. Congratulations on your fine win. Regards // pau Vijay Pandit October 27, 2020 at 3:27 PM Thank you Paul--much appreciate. Regards.

Anne-Lise Andresen October 27, 2020 at 8:52 AM - Congratulations on your win, Vijay :) - hugs // Anne-Lise :) Vijay Pandit October 27, 2020 at 12:45 PM Much appreciate Anne-Lise--many thanks.

Unseeking Seeker October 26, 2020 at 8:56 PM Unvoiced loving intent holding deep sentiment! Congrats! Vijay Pandit October 27, 2020 at 12:44 PM Many thanks--much appreciate.

Eve Roper October 26, 2020 at 8:36 PM Love the third stanza my friend. Congratulations on your win! Hugs Eve Vijay Pandit October 27, 2020 at 12:44 PM Thank you Eve--much appreciate.

Mark Koplin October 26, 2020 at 5:25 PM Congratulations on your win! Vijay Pandit October 27, 2020 at 12:44 PM Much appreciate Mark--many thanks.

Alexis Y. October 26, 2020 at 10:20 AM WoW! Vijay, You described the feeling of not telling someone, how you really feel very well. I found your piece to be emotional and well written. Your last three lines were impactful . Excellent job my friend. Congratulations on your placement in the contest. Have a wonderful day:-) Alexis Vijay Pandit October 27, 2020 at 12:43 PM Much appreciate Alexis--many thanks.

Jennifer Proxenos October 26, 2020 at 9:32 AM Hi Vijay, many times in my life , be it for whatever reason I have chastised myself for not telling people everything I knew, but it would mean hurting a good friend. She found out on her own he was having affairs behind her back - the marriage lasted two years. Hugs and blessings Jennifer. - great poem my friend and congratulations. Vijay Pandit October 27, 2020 at 12:42 PM Thank you Jennifer--much appreciate.

Silent One October 26, 2020 at 9:21 AM Sometimes we never have the courage to say what we want to say... and we always think what if... Congratulations on your placement.. Vijay Pandit October 27, 2020 at 12:42 PM Much appreciate, SO--many thanks.

Heidi Sands October 26, 2020 at 6:47 AM wow!! This poem is packed with emotion. I love it. A fav! :) Vijay Pandit October 27, 2020 at 12:41 PM Much appreciate Heidi--many thanks. And a very special thank you for the FAVE.

Linda Alice Fowler October 26, 2020 at 6:32 AM "Recalling you fondly in lifelong regret:" Unrequited love–one of those "what-ifs" we carry around. Beautiful Vijay. Linda Vijay Pandit October 27, 2020 at 12:41 PM Thank you Linda--much appreciate.

Brandy Nicole October 25, 2020 at 7:06 PM "If only I had courage to break my silence" Seems confidence is lacking, most of the time. One will never know, unless whispers caress the air. This is beautiful and tender, all at the same time. ~ Brandy Vijay Pandit October 26, 2020 at 6:08 AM Much appreciate your kind remarks, Brandy--many thanks, as always.

Mystic Rose Rose October 25, 2020 at 5:45 PM We all have many a regret in life Vijay, this sounds like a deep love never spoken, winning wishes dear poet. Vijay Pandit October 26, 2020 at 6:07 AM Much appreciate Vienna--many thanks for your visit and comments.

Janice Canerdy October 25, 2020 at 3:38 PM Such a moving, poignant, piece, Vijay--looking back and saying "if only . . . Janice Vijay Pandit October 26, 2020 at 6:06 AM Many thanks, Janice--much appreciate.

Victor Buhagiar October 25, 2020 at 1:15 PM If only...how oft we ask it ourselves. Your arguments are to the point. Always a fine poem Best for a win. ~~ Vijay Pandit October 26, 2020 at 6:06 AM Thank you Victor--much appreciate, as always.

Anne-Lise Andresen October 25, 2020 at 12:37 PM - We often think ... "if only" ... a lovely and emotional poem, Vijay :) - Best wishes in the contest :) - hugs // Anne-Lise :) Vijay Pandit October 26, 2020 at 6:05 AM Much appreciate, Anne-Lise. Many thanks.

Tom Cunningham October 25, 2020 at 12:15 PM A powerful emotional write Vijay, we often go through life asking ourselves those two words, if only. Good luck Tom Vijay Pandit October 26, 2020 at 6:05 AM Thank you Tom--always a pleasure to read your comments. Much appreciate, as always.

Angela Crabtree October 25, 2020 at 12:01 PM Beautifully written, Vijay. I think we all wonder from time to time..."if only". Have a great day :) Vijay Pandit October 26, 2020 at 6:04 AM Much appreciate Angela--many thanks.

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