If Only

If only my pain would not run As tears down my cheeks Faced with the wall That Love has made of himself! If only my words would not be met With disgusted silence Subtly shredding my heart Into thousands of slices! If only my dreams would come true I would have held out my hands To pluck clouds from rainbowed skies And share them With the rest of the world! If only life was not so harsh on me I would have smiled from my soul Without having to pretend That I am not bothered By those cold winds That tear through my bones In the gloom of my own shadows! If only this world was made of sincerity My happiness would have shined Instead of being caged in a glass tin Made to look alluring to those Who gape at it curiously Making it seem like an animal Trapped in a zoo! If only my story had a happy ending My poems would have been adorned With sunflowers and roses Fragrant and light Dancing to the tunes played By the winds sent by the Gods! If only, If only regret was a word Which did not exist I would have enjoyed Earth's clime At all times Even if it is made of winters and autumns! Written on 4th August 2020