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If only I hadn't lost my mind; I blamed myself and later you For doubting me; could not abide The lies, the hate that carried me To actions formed impatiently, In haste, you see, Disguised so well by finery; I fooled them all then stole the key. If only my dreams were peaceful, Untouched by demons and monsters Propelling me ever closer to the edge; Bringing together hopes of Triumph And Disaster, clashing as one; My enemies caught in a perfect trap Fashioned by shiny, sharp tools That later turned on me. If only I had thought ahead And stored my goods in firesafe; I lost it all in one fell swoop, Lamented loud for all to hear I'm nothing now, the end is near; I lost my hold, there's naught but fear Remaining here, now all may leer; There is no hope, I face the rear. If only I had spoke with care When white coats came to worry me With talk of cures and nursing homes; My loving friends encouraged me To take a bed, enjoy the rest; They broke my faith with hurtful lies; If only hours would pass in silence, Not roar unhindered in their noise. If only I had been meek, Mine would be the earth. Written in response to "If" by Rudyard Kipling 10/24/2018

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Date: 11/26/2018 12:26:00 AM
- Congratulations on yours: "In response to IF ...." poems, Deb :) - hugs // Anne-Lise :)
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Date: 11/28/2018 8:38:00 AM
Thanks, Anne-Lise. I appreciate your taking time to read this poem and write these words of support.
Date: 11/25/2018 6:40:00 PM
Nicely done, Deb, congratulations on your placement in the contest I enjoyed reading..
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Date: 11/28/2018 8:36:00 AM
Thanks, Eve. I appreciate your comments and your time in reading this poem.
Date: 11/25/2018 10:47:00 AM
I've lost so much in my life, but the only thing I miss is my mind.. great take on the contest Deb.. Congratulations on your placement in the contest..
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Date: 11/28/2018 8:35:00 AM
Thank you for placing me among the winners. I appreciate it very much.
Date: 10/26/2018 9:42:00 AM
Wow! Quite an answer to Mr. Kipling, well done Deb, best wishes in the contest...
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Date: 10/26/2018 11:29:00 AM
Thank you, Charlie. Your encouraging words mean a great deal to me. Deb
Date: 10/26/2018 7:37:00 AM
Wow, this was really good. Your stream of thoughts are gathered in such an intense by pleasing way. I can feel the pain, the regret and the hope for something more to come that changes everything. This was a fantastic piece of writing. Thank you for sharing
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Date: 10/26/2018 11:28:00 AM
Thanks, so much. You've given me a great compliment. I appreciate your words and your taking time to read on comment on my poem. Deb
Date: 10/25/2018 12:22:00 PM
Deb, this is truly a very moving and insightful poem - I predict that it will rate at the top of the contest. Glad you enjoyed the Green Bean Casserole write. My daughter reminded me that Reilly was a "she" not a "he" so I revised the poem to reflect that - my face is red!!!! Best to you as you continue your poetical journey - Bob
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Date: 10/25/2018 12:36:00 PM
Thank you, Bob. It’s nice to hear from a familiar voice after all these years. It’s very good to be back, and writing poetry again. Your words of support are so appreciated. And whether Reilly was a “she” or not, your poem was just as delightful. Love, Deb
Date: 10/24/2018 9:42:00 PM
Your pen is so intense and powerful! The strains of regret and loss carry through so well...excellent verse, Deb! Should do well in the contest :)
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Date: 10/24/2018 9:48:00 PM
Thank you, Laura. Your words are much appreciated. I was nervous about entering this in the contest as the words talk back, in a way, to a beloved poem. Thanks for taking time to read this and especially, thanks for your support. Deb
Date: 10/24/2018 6:40:00 PM
Excellent poetry..your take on the contest is unique..a well written poem..delivered so aptly..you will win with this poem, Deb.
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Date: 10/24/2018 8:31:00 PM
Thank you so much, Vijay. I hesitated to respond this way to a poem I love. I thought I would take a look at the dark side, the flip side, if you will. I’m glad you liked it. I truly appreciate your support. My best. Deb