If It Weren'T For You

If it weren't for you, I wouldn't be stronger. I wouldn't have my guard up.. I would have grew fonder. Thank you for taking that away from me. And letting my eyes see what I refused to believe. You left yourself open, for me to let go. You weren't strong enough... But my heart was, though. If I was utterly mistaken, for what I have said. You would have contacted me.. But you let me go, instead. If it weren't for you, I would still be holding on. To something that wasn't even there anymore. Something that, for months, was gone. You've made it quite impossible to ever trust again. In time, I may find the right person, out there. But then again, no one understands. No one's ever loved me, for me. I thought you were the only one. You told me never to worry about things. And I was right, all along. I was always told to go with my gut feelings. I never did listen to myself. I refused to believe you were like everyone else. And I hung my heart high on your shelf. I loved you and I would have stood by you no matter what the outcome would have been. But again, you lied and you tore me up. I'm looking out for me now...This was then.............