If I Lied

Momma She doesn’t want to hear from me no more I'm tired, she cried Pointed me in a direction But I see that door Would it be selfish on my part To grip her palms and ask for more? Though it's not on her chest She simply hopes that her customers tip the best If I said she hated me I wonder would she put these lips to rest In this post digital life I got an email from a past friend Point the icon to reply Started to type but I had no words to send Like a small whisper it said love won't last As if to hold my head I didn't bother to ask Rub the hurt To keep her above the dirt She tried She held on with what she could Until she died I said I'd never shed a tear But I lied I took her hand and cried Before you leave this story alone Maybe there's something you could do To piece together the worry at home In moments that it really counted I guess I just would not listen At times when I should have softened My heart did nothing but stiffen I guess that's just the way life is Think about what you love and lost What was once yours was always his I never saw her but once But she never forgot To send me peace on my birthday Sometimes I wonder Did she lose me in her worst ways Then again There isn’t much I can say She tried She held on the best she could Until she died I said I'd never shed a tear But I lied I took her hand and cried With a little help from you We put together withered ends of a string In better hope that one day, one of us Would suffer once more to hear the other sing Sometimes fantasies are life But most of the time You just want to find intimacy with your wife I'm not trying to make amends But it's all over when it ends So love your child Make your everyday float above his smiles I couldn't sympathize for your illness For every person maintains their own struggle So wipe away your tears Let us not become absorbed by the puddle Keep doing what you do no one can stop you from pursuing it but you The consequences, the awards I'll happily push my cart Further down the morgue So close your eyes If I were to take my last breath I'd still wish you the best She tried She held on with what she could Until she died I said I'd never shed a tear But I lied I took her hand and cried