If I Ever Learn How To Cry

If I ever learn how to cry there will be so many tears that I will drop I'll shed a tear for every relationship gone wrong and everyone that I've lost I'll cry for every tragedy in my childhood that I was forced to smile through But I won't cry because I didn't fit in, that's sometimes just how life styles you I've been through things that would make most people cry, but I don't know how to do so I've acted out in the wrong ways in the past,but now I need a new role I hid my pain for a while, I've always been careful with what I do show I hope I learn how to shed tears before I'm too old My legs are tired from walking this road, I need to lie down Flashbacks of things I want to forget that I'm unable to cry about Maybe this is just one ability that I'll die without I'm always truthful because I don't think there's anything to lie about Depression held me hostage, but I had poetry as a friend I would daydream hoping my nightmares would end I've always had a lot of pain in my heart and sad thoughts in my head The craziest thing is, every time I fought back against depression it was me who bled Tears don't leave my eyes, so I let them show on this pad I'm unsure if I'd cry over the fact I had to grow without my Dad You can't miss what you never had so I don't feel a loss But If I ever learn how to cry, there will be so many tears that I will drop