If I Ever Learn How To Cry

If I ever learn how to cry there will be so many tears that I will drop
I'll shed a tear for every relationship gone wrong and everyone that I've lost
I'll cry for every tragedy in my childhood that I was forced to smile through 
But I won't cry because I didn't fit in, that's sometimes just how life styles you

I've been through things that would make most people cry, but I don't know how to do so
I've acted out in the wrong ways in the past,but now I need a new role 
I hid my pain for a while, I've always been careful with what I do show
I hope I learn how to shed tears before I'm too old

My legs are tired from walking this road, I need to lie down 
Flashbacks of things I want to forget that I'm unable to cry about 
Maybe this is just one ability that I'll die without 
I'm always truthful because I don't think there's anything to lie about 

Depression held me hostage, but I had poetry as a friend 
I would daydream hoping my nightmares would end
I've always had a lot of pain in my heart and sad thoughts in my head
The craziest thing is, every time I fought back against depression it was me who bled

Tears don't leave my eyes, so I let them show on this pad
I'm unsure if I'd cry over the fact I had to grow without my Dad
You can't miss what you never had so I don't feel a loss
But If I ever learn how to cry, there will be so many tears that I will drop
Copyright © | Year Posted 2019

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