If He Knew

what would he say if he knew my thoughts the ones running through my head would he laugh at me say they could never be true or tell me they're right would he tell me never to think that or ask me why I didn't already know these thoughts drive me crazy the questions only make it worse I love him but these thoughts they drive me crazy and I have no one here to sooth them to tell me everything is fine I just want to hear him talk to him like we used to and not constantly wonder are my thoughts true or am I making it worse for myself