If Ever

I wish I had had a chance A chance to cast a single glance on them Them who would always be by my side Motivating me on how to conquer hardships Giving me wisdom so as to overcome obstacles Streams on my cheeks could have dried up... Only leaving tear drops of joy If...Ever... If...Ever...I had her who carried me Nine months in her womb At least i would have someone Someone who could understand me better The second from my Creator Who would know the 'right and wrong' about me Maybe I would suite enough To match my generation I also desire i could not call my Dad 'dead' I would always smile... Smile that i have someone Who bear responsibilities of his child Beat me up so i could differentiate Between right and wrong And always be proud of me When i succeeded my goals Unfortunately...i have to learn To bear my own responsibilities As the Most High made An irreversible move I always give thanks As His move built a castle, A castle of courage in me, Though i somehow weep... If...Ever...