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If I didn't believe I would be lost, unable to grow incapable of finding my path - my loss, living without would be inconceivable beyond measurement; but as it is I do believe though questions are unanswered if not I would be drowning in darkness, straining against the tide to touch the surface, there, I found the path, my way back, I struggled to find my path, my hope, an escape from my self pity; here, at this later stage of life I have found friendship, have hope, embracing the light God's presence is in everything around me in this now, this today, this always that surrounds me, you, earth, the everyday world in which we live there it is, in this if I do believe.