I'D Look Better Without You

You told me that no one else would want me I believed you and began to feel ugly Obeyed all your rules so that your hands, feet & UFOs didn't meet my body People tried to tell me to leave but I ignored everybody I was scared to leave because you said you’ll find me And every step I took you’d be one step behind me I kept silent and people became passers-by I kept my head down so no one could see the pain in my eyes You say you love me right? So why are my eyes always black & blue? If I was alone I wouldn’t look the way I do Hiding my black eyes behind shades with no sun looking like a fool I can definitely go without your love I think I’d look better without you I’m tired of long sleeved shirts and pants And I shouldn’t have to hide in my pockets the scars on my hands I want to know what makes you think that you have the right To put your hands on me through out the day and all through the night You said that you want me to see the world But how can I with my eyes swollen shut And how can I have ever believed that this was love You have me plotting how to end your life while you sleep Because that’s the only time you're helpless and harmless to me No one wants to help me because they say I’m a fool And what’s the point because I’ll end up running back to you I’m tired of feeling half dead and isolated from what I used to know as love You separated me from my family and friends and most of all my mother You constantly bash me and bring your other girls to jump me Having them calling my phone threatening me Watching me everywhere I go and lying to you about where I’ve been So then you beat me until you reopen my stitches again Don’t you think I’ve been through enough? Think about all the things you have done When you kicked me down the stairs I broke my arm and lost my unborn son What kind of person beats others until their unconscious and at the end claim it was love This must’ve been the way your father did ur mother Or did she do this to u? Just remember the next time you hurt me you’re out of luck Because once you go to sleep you’ll never get back up It’s not wrong of me to do It’s all because I love you