Janice Canerdy Poet Quatrain

Notes About The Poem

Fictional, but realistic~~dedicated to those who have escaped toxic relationships

 

November 15, 2021

written for the Leave Me Alone Contest      

placed 8th, premiere contest

Sponsor: Mystic Rose Rose

 

June 16, 2023

entered in the Teardrop Poetry Contest

Sponsor: Regina McIntosh

placed 8th of 10

 

 

I Won'T Go Back

Though I now live the life I’ve always wanted,
sometimes by hurtful memories I’m haunted.
Some images of you are harsh reminders
of how I worshiped you, while wearing blinders.

I wept through your emotional abuses.
As they increased, I made my lame excuses:
“He works so hard; his job is really trying!
He’s always sorry when he sees me crying.”

As time wore on, I feared I would awaken,
alone; this gnawing anguish left me shaken.
I couldn’t fathom ever being able 
to leave. I see now I had grown unstable.

I started praying fervently, believing
that someday I’d escape; I’d cease my cleaving
and shed not one more tear. I am truly grateful
I had the strength to leave a man so hateful.

When I moved out, you thought I’d be returning.
You begged for months, insisting you were “yearning
to prove my love”! I’ve been firm in repeating
“I won't come back,” confirming your unseating!

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Regina Mcintosh June 24, 2023 at 3:40 AM So amazing. Writing to congratulate. Love it. God bless you and much love, Gina Janice Canerdy June 24, 2023 at 6:37 AM Gina, thanks a million for sponsoring and for my win!! Janice

Lindsay Laurie November 19, 2021 at 9:27 PM Hello Janice ... a much too common occurrence that your poem brings steely strength to - well done Janice - Lindsay Janice Canerdy December 18, 2021 at 7:33 AM Lindsay, please accept this REALLY belated "thank you"! Janice

Bj Legros Kelley November 17, 2021 at 11:45 PM Congratulations on your fantastic poem, as well as for escaping abuse. God bless you Janice, this poem could well be a wonderful gift written on small cards to encourage those at shelters who are in the beginning stages of life after escaping the horrors of emotional (and other) abuses. It takes a lot of inner strength for a victim to finally get away. You are what Vijay's comment stated "your poem gives them a voice" Love this <3 ~BJ Janice Canerdy November 18, 2021 at 8:04 AM BJ, thank you so much for this wonderful message! (The poem is not about me, but I'm glad I made it believable.) Janice

Christuraj Alex November 16, 2021 at 9:22 PM "how I worshiped you, while wearing blinders", "I made my lame excuses", "gnawing anguish left me shaken", "I’ve been firm in repeating “Leave me alone,” confirming your unseating" - Great writing. Congratulations! Janice Canerdy November 17, 2021 at 5:09 PM Christuraj, thanks so much! Janice

Beata Agustin November 16, 2021 at 6:49 PM Congrats! Thanks for sharing this reality expressed in your awesome poetic style... God bless you. Janice Canerdy November 17, 2021 at 5:09 PM Thanks a million, Beata! Janice

Rico Leffanta November 16, 2021 at 10:45 AM Well thought and scribed! It is indeed fascinating how love comes with blinders! Janice Canerdy November 18, 2021 at 8:02 AM Rico, thank you so much! Janice

Regina Mcintosh November 16, 2021 at 6:41 AM Love this... A great write... on the theme. Love it. God bless you - with love, Gina Janice Canerdy November 16, 2021 at 7:00 AM Thanks so much, Gina. Janice

Vijay Pandit November 16, 2021 at 5:16 AM Story such as the one you describe is quite common--and your poem gives them a voice, Janice. Well written! Janice Canerdy November 16, 2021 at 7:00 AM Thanks so much, Vijay. Janice