I Wonder

I wonder what do you do when you have all those emotions in you but you can't speak up? I wonder what to do when you get what you have always wanted but it no longer feels like it is supposed to, instead it's like its suffocating you Am i the only one with all the wonders or you even has it? i wonder Why can't you speak up you ask Am afraid that i will be misheard or misinterpreted Am afraid that i will push away the one thing i have always wanted and now i have it even thou it's not the same Am afraid that i will be alone if i do speak up i answered you Someone once told me that am afraid of being alone and that's why i get myself attached to people so easily so that i can avoid being alone, i laughed at him and told him that he was crazy that there is no way it's true but truth to be told he couldn't be anymore right I say this because i can't let go of what i have right now even though am incredibly being hurt in the process but i do get that one minute of happiness and am scared of being alone it's a feeling that am always afraid of I wonder what could happen if i let go Would i regret that i gave it up or that i should have done it earlier? I wonder