I Wish You Knew Me Now.

I wish you knew me now I'm different Or at least I comfort myself With the belief I might be Comfort myself that Maybe now I know more Maybe now I know I know less Or maybe Maybe now I know who I am Finally I wish you knew me now Because That thing I did And that thing you said And that middle-ground that we never found And all those myriad things That made it impossible For us To know each other anymore Seem of little consequence Now I wish you knew me now I understand that you can't I understand I hurt you I understand that you can't stand To hurt me anymore I could Tell you that I'll never hurt you again Tell you that it'll be different this time Tell you that I've learnt my lesson But I can Tell that it wouldn't matter Anymore Sometimes I wish you knew me now So I could show you the scars That you gave me That I gave myself In your name Then I'd make you examine them closely I'd make you run your fingertips over them I'd make you remember each one I'd make you understand I cherish them I'd make you see how They made me Beautiful I wish you knew me now You're so incredibly special Without you I've become more But I feel less Maybe if you knew me now The feeling would come back Because you always made me Feel Challenged/loved/compromised/safe/understood You always made me feel Known